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&I can't wait to turn 18 Currently schooling at pioneer junior college
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god bless me with a ♥wonderful family♥, great bunch of "loves" & the best boyfriend
just what more can i ask for?
& i'm just so in love with patrick, yes yes patrick
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The memories
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
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March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
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July 2008
September 2008
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November 2008
second time blogging.
thought of him. th old him.
depressed. yes i am ):
i`ve moved on. many times, i told myself to MOVE ON.
im th one initiating th break-up.
i shouldnt b dwelling into th past alright.
i love you. yes i do.
but, we just dont match.
th trust, no longer that.
or i should i say, IT WAS NEVER THERE.
051105 we started.
ended on march this year.
you made me trust you wholeheartedly.
you lied to me again and again.
i forgave you again and again.
you were really good at lying.
i cant c through your lies. ><
th first time you lied : i teared.
th second time you lied : i teared again.
th third time you lied : my heart sank.
th forth time you lied : my heart sank deeper.
th fifth time you lied : my heart shattered.
th sixth time you lied : i started hating myself.
th seventh time you lied : i asked myself wher did we went wrong
th eighth time you lied : i started to think if th prob lies w me.
th ninth time you lied : i started to repent.
th tenth time you lied : i tried to change for th sake of you...
you`ve always got reasons for lying.
th first time you ****** me : im terrified.
th second time you ****** me : i broke down.
many times you ****** me, i tried to seek help from friends.
you promised you wont.
but you broke your promises.
we broke up.
patched up.
friends reprimanded me for my foolishness.
i hate myself for being so weak, for being a slave of love.
but all that doesnt matter, because,
i`ve always thought that love is everything.
you ll change one day.
you sweared and vowed that you would change.
you gave me fairytales promises.
you caught me with all your lies.
you ******** me for umpteen times.
that`s so unforgivable.
but i forgave you still.
im weak. yes i am.
i cried upon thinkin that you wont at least feel a lil guilty
when ********* me.
i started to doubt your love for me.
but you re-assured me with those promises.
yes. i can no longer trust you.
i can no longer hav faith in this relationship.
i refused to give up.
BUT I HAVE TO.
because i know, things just wont work out for us.
unwilling to forget our past.
our picture, hanging on th wall stil.
our pics in my handphone stil.
our neoprints, cautiously placed there.
you are leading on own life now. WITHOUT ME.
you have your gf now.
i cant imagine one day seeing you on th streets w ur gf.
i fear.
im confused. i can no longer stand this.
i cant focus. my mind is in a whirl.
EMO.
XOXO & overwhelming YAYNESS