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abcdefghijKELLY
&I can't wait to turn 18 Currently schooling at pioneer junior college
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god bless me with a ♥wonderful family♥, great bunch of "loves" & the best boyfriend
just what more can i ask for?
& i'm just so in love with patrick, yes yes patrick
♥ Give me a magical wand &.. ♥
♥ i'll sprinkle bits of love to my endeared ones& of course bless myself with a awesome A level cert
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The memories
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
i cant take it anymore.
here i am, lying in a pool of misery.
pain im feeling hurts, it`s not going to subside any soon.
sometimes, i can cover it well,
sometimes, i can fake it well,
sometimes, i can laugh louder than anyone else,
sometimes, i can hold that sickening smile on my face for hours,
sometimes, i can act as if i`ve got over those stuffs.
those old stuffs. those stuffs trillion years ago.
those stuffs he wont even remember.
tears after tears. crying alone at night,
with the thought of finding someone to talk&just hear me cry.
sometimes, i wonder, will they be irritated ?
irritated by my frequents cries ?
irritated by me crying over THE SAME OLD STUFFS.
just a simple photo, a simple flashback,
it will trigger all those never-ending tears.
who will understand&know how i feel ? deep inside.
no one, not even my family/best-est friends.
sometimes, i feel that those who claimed that they are my true
friends/buddies dont even care, perhaps, they dont even give a damn.
im such a weakling, i cant even hold on a even a second longer to cover
my despondency. it`s tiring. really.
my dispirited-ness all revolves around one thing : him.
what`s so great about him, i dont know.
what`s so nice about him, i dont know.
i just remembered those times, when i felt that he was true.
girls, it`s just disadvantaged to stay true&'faithful' to one.
love ? out there, in the field of love, i bet not many are true.
now, i tell you, if you dont love me,
PLEASE DONT LOOK AT ME IN SUCH A WAY,
PLEASE DONT GIVE ME FORLORN GLANCES,
PLEASE DONT CARE FOR ME,
PLEASE - DONT EVEN SAY A WORD.
sometimes, people told me, i think he still has that 'something'
for you, i think it`s not merely care&concern.
maybe.. maybe..
it`s all false hope.
i really dont understand why am i still reluctant to let go,
that relationship that i`ve not yet walk out since 7months ago.
forever, i will stay&live in regrets for im the one causing my own misery.
friends, dont send me those usual messages.
be ignorant, act like you are ignorant - these will be my greatest comfort.
how i wish i could just play&dance/or do whatsoever that
could brings at least a millisecond of those thoughts away from me.
XOXO & overwhelming YAYNESS