How i wish.. how i wish time can go back to year `05.
This gonna be an emo post again ):
Looking back the emo entries I've posted, it all revolved
around you. Sometimes, i just feel like giving myself
one tight slap for thinking about the impossibles. I
wanna move on, but i just CAN'T. And, i really can't.
The memories & all.
I dreamt of you always. And it's only in the dreams
when i can hold you tight. For that instant, i knew
i was the happiest girl in the world because I had
you in my arms. But, everything ended abruptly when
i woke up from this nightmare. Weep. It's when
this nightmare ended that I knew I have to let go
of you because it's just a dream. A DREAM.
I regretted letting you go & forsaking this relationship.
Sometimes,i just have the urge to call you up and tell
you everything, EVERYTHING. But, i really doesn't
wish to disrupt your happy life. I know, you're really
doing well without me, but I'm really not doing well
without you.
Sometimes, I'm really stressed up & i really hope you
can be there for me, just a word from you helps a lot too.
Sigh.
If i were given one more chance,
i swear I'll never
let go of you anymore. But i wonder
when will this 'one chance' ever come?
I wonder if i ever died, will you at least shed a tear
for me? Will you kneel upon that cold dead body of
mine and tell me you still love me..
hy..
You're the reason why i club&drink.